#Walk Away: Why I Am Not a Trinitarian
A faith journey: I believe in God the Father, and in Jesus the Messiah, the Son of God.
I was born and raised in a suburb of Minneapolis, MN at a
time when kids played outside all day in the summer and house doors were not
locked at night. I am the second of four boys. We were a somewhat typical
American suburban family. Dad went to work, kids tolerated school, and mom
stayed home until kids got older. Jumping ahead for just a moment, for most of
our adult lives we were not typical as the four brothers lived in more or less
four different continents. My older brother a pilot in the USA, me a teacher in
Israel, next brother a teacher in Japan, and the youngest brother a doctor in
Switzerland.
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My dad
was agnostic about religious things and although not being opposed to others
involvement in church, he was not a church-goer. My mom was more involved in
church and made the effort to bring her four boys. In our teen years she
would pay us $5.00 to come to church (which the internet tells me is equivalent
to $30.00 in 2023). When I was 14 years old, she started going to a church that
taught the idea of having a “personal relationship with” and “accepting” Jesus.
I remember sitting in the church, listening to a message, being bothered by my
own sin, and seeing in my mind the man Jesus on the cross, accepting that
somehow that man on the cross was a remedy for my sin.
Although
I could do well in school, I never liked it. Much of school seemed
impractical. Through my high school days,
I didn’t live what could be called a “Christ honoring life”, but I always felt
I knew there was something about God, Jesus and the Bible that was true. Not
long after graduating from high school, I remember sitting on a park bench, looking
up at the night sky and praying, “Please God, if you are, I want to know
you.” I started to read the Bible on my own.
After
working for a year in a grain elevator and then studying at the University of
Minnesota for a year, I became interested in the creation-evolution issue and
learned there was a Christian college in San Diego, CA that was affiliated with
the Institute for Creation Research. I packed up my Chevy Vega station
wagon and headed west to study at that college. I was becoming more and more
interested in the Bible, and during personal Bible readings from a hill
overlooking El Cajon, CA, I consistently prayed, “God, I want to know the
truth. I want to know you”. I think God
honors that prayer.
I ended
up graduating from college with a degree in Bible and Education. I don’t think
I would have ever finished college if I couldn’t have studied Bible. I stumbled
into the education part through athletic coaching. Back in Minnesota my
youngest brother’s jr. high-age basketball team needed a coach, so my other
brother and I took it on. I enjoyed it and then coached boys’ community football
and baseball teams.
The
first time I got interested in Israel was when I was browsing the bookstore at
the University of Minnesota and saw a picture of “the pool which is in Gibeon”
(Jer. 41:12, 2 Sam. 2:13) in the Oxford Bible Atlas. It struck me that
“Wow, these places in the Bible are real. I’d like to go there someday”. Reading about Jerusalem and Galilee in the
Gospels, Psalms and Isaiah in college got me more interested in the places
mentioned in the Bible to the point where after graduating from college, I
decided I wanted to go to Israel to live. I figured it’s a real place. People
must be able to find a job there. This was in 1984. I was young and single. I
bought a one-way ticket.
In Jerusalem I started learning modern Hebrew, did odd tutoring jobs, and
whatever else I could to live inexpensively. For instance, for a while I had a
room in the home of an elderly widow whose family wanted someone who would just
be home by 9:00 PM in case their elderly mother needed help.
Eventually
I got a degree in Hebrew language from Jerusalem University College, a school
which also focused on biblical history and geography. I started working at the
same school, both in administration and teaching. I worked there for eight
years.
While working at the school I had become friends with teachers from an American
conservative Christian college who were interested in sending larger groups of
students to Israel. I helped start an extension campus in Israel in which college
and seminary students could study the Bible in the land of the Bible for a
semester. For seminary students who were usually a bit older and couldn’t
commit to a whole semester, we had intensive three-week Bible geography courses
in the summer.
By this
time, I had met my wife, who had come to Israel to study. We came back briefly
to be married in her Indiana hometown and then returned to Israel.
We
worked at the college extension campus in Israel for 24 years. It was a great
experience. I felt at home in biblical lands, teaching biblical history,
geography and Hebrew. I eventually wrote a book called the Satellite
Bible Atlas. We lived in a small village just outside Jerusalem which
was not only a great place for the students but for raising our five children.
Our children are culturally Israeli-American. Two of our boys served in the
Israeli military.
The
small village outside of Jerusalem where we lived is made up of both Jewish and
Gentile “believers” or “Messianics”, “Christians”, who claim that Jesus
(Yeshua) is the Messiah. I helped start a congregation at the village and was a
teaching elder in the congregation for 18 years.
As I
lived in Israel for decades, I inevitably began to see that there are problems
with some claims of mainstream Christianity; indeed, that some mainstream Christian claims were non-biblical. For instance - it took me years - but
eventually I began to understand that the biblical promise and hope for
humankind is not a disembodied escape to heaven, but of real physical
resurrection life to the renewed earth in which righteousness dwells (1 Cor.
6:14, 2 Pet. 3:13). I didn’t immediately
put two and two together, but now understand that the hope of resurrection means
that man is not innately immortal. God wasn’t kidding when he said, “You will
certainly die” and Paul agreed when he wrote that “the wages of sin is
death”. God didn’t say “Your body will die but you, your real “self”, your soul
will keep living”. God said, “YOU will certainly die”. Mainstream Christianity had adopted Platonic Greek philosophy which claims that death is
merely a separation of the body from the soul.
In some ways, I was beginning to understand more and more the Jewish-ness of
the New Testament. And then, a Galilean Israelite in whom there was no guile,
Nathanael, caused no small change in my and my family’s life. As recorded in
John 1:49, on the first day Nathanael saw Jesus, Nathanael exclaimed, “Rabbi,
you are the Son of God; you are the King of Israel!”
I had been living in Israel long enough and knew enough biblical and Israelite
history to know that no righteous Israelite of the 1st century would
say to a human being, “Rabbi you are ‘God the Son’”.
Nathanael’s
declaration sent me back into the Bible to find out what “Son of God” meant as
defined and understood in the Bible itself. I discovered that Christianity had
warped the title “Son of God” into “God the Son”. I discovered that “God the
Son” is never in the Bible. “God the Son” is not a biblical title or concept but
the title “Son of God” in the Bible is always given to created beings,
especially to human beings (Rom. 8:19, Gal. 3:26), especially to Israel (Exo.
4:22), and especially as Israel’s representative, to the King of Israel (2 Sam.
7:12-14, Psa. 2:2-7, Psa. 89:26-27).
So
that’s what Nathanael meant! “Son of God”, though with different emphasis and
nuances, is another title for the ideal King of Israel, the Messiah. In its
Hebraic, biblical meaning, there is no proclamation of deity whatsoever in the
title “Son of God”.
I gave
a sermon in our congregation to explain the biblical background to the title “Son
of God”. I thought it important that Jewish “messianics” in Israel know that the
Hebrew Scriptures declare that the Messiah is “the Son of God, not “God the
Son”. I challenged people to find the title or idea of “God the Son” in the
Bible. Mostly the sermon went over well in the congregation. Only a couple
people were puzzled or questioned what I was saying.
So, if Jesus wasn’t “God the Son”, who was he? I had been taught, believed, and
even on occasion taught others that Jesus was God and man, that
Jesus had a divine nature and a human nature. Even after discovering that Jesus
was not “God the Son”, I had heard some teaching and even accepted for a while
that, don’t laugh, “Son of Man” was the title that declared Jesus’s deity –
because of a vision that the prophet Daniel had seen of a Son of Man in heaven
with God, the Ancient of Days.
But as
I went back to the Scriptures, I discovered more and more that Jesus’ own
declaration, and the declaration of the apostles, was not that Jesus was
literally God, or a God-man, but that he was a man, a real human person,
through whom God worked. The human person Jesus represented God, as he said, “I
was sent by God...when you see me you see the Father”. But the God the man
Jesus represented was the Father. He was not “God the Son” who became a man. The New Testament declaration was not “God is
Christ” but “God (that is, the Father) in Christ”.
My
presuppositions about Jesus being “God” or a “God-man” had caused me to skip
over so many passages where Jesus is explicitly declared to be a human person. Or, I just thought, “well, that’s the human Jesus”. I didn’t realize that making
Jesus into a “dual-natured” person was really making Jesus into a two-faced
liar. In truth, I was not really paying attention to what the Scriptures
were saying. All of a sudden Scriptures
like these began to jump out at me:
John
8:40: “…but now you seek to kill me, a man who has told you the
truth which I heard from God…”
John
20:17: “…go to my brothers and say to them, ‘I am ascending to my Father and
your Father, to my God and your God.’”
Acts
2:22: “Men of Israel, hear these words: Jesus of Nazareth, a man
attested to you by God with mighty works and wonders and signs which God did
through him in your midst, as you yourselves know…”
Acts
2:36: “Let all the house of Israel therefore know assuredly that God
has made him both Lord and Christ, this Jesus whom you crucified.”
Acts
17:31: “… because he (God) has fixed a day on which he will judge the world in
righteousness by a man whom he has appointed; and of this he has given
assurance to all by raising him from the dead."
Romans
5:15: “But the free gift is not like the trespass. For if many died through one
man's trespass, much more have the grace of God and the free gift by the grace
of that one man Jesus Christ abounded for many.”
1
Corinthians 15:21: “For as by a man came death, by a man
has come also the resurrection of the dead.”
Eph.
1:3 (2 Cor. 1:3, 1 Pet. 1:3): Blessed be the God and Father of
our Lord Jesus Christ,
1
Timothy 2:4-5: God “…desires all men to be saved and to come to the knowledge
of the truth. For there is one God, and
there is one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus…”
These
Scriptures did not declare that “Jesus is God” or that Jesus was a “God-man”.
Quite the contrary. In the Scriptures Jesus is always differentiated from God
and is a man. Jesus has a God. I had never seen that before! Indeed,
Jesus is a man who is appointed by God, through whom God worked, who was
raised from the dead by God and given authority and power at God’s right hand.
But nonetheless, a man. The only mediator between God and man is a
man, not a God or a God-man (1 Tim. 2:4-5).
I had
never understood that if you are the Son of the Living God (Matt. 16:16), you
obviously are not the Living God. If you
are the Son of God Most High, you are not God Most High (Luke 1:32). My
presuppositions were preventing me, blinding me from seeing what the Scriptures
really declared. I was following tradition rather than the word of God.
Sure, I
knew about the proof texts that supposedly declared the “deity of Christ”: John
1:1 “and the Word was God”; John 8:48 “before Abraham comes to be, I am”; John
10:30 “I and the Father are one”; John 20:28 Thomas’ declaration “my Lord and
my God”; Philippians 2:5-7, Colossians 1:15-18, etc. So, I went back and
studied those passages and came to see that none of these passages declare the
“deity of Christ.” In fact, the “deity of Christ” interpretation in each case attempts
to denigrate the only God, the Father, and to eliminate the man, the human
person, Christ Jesus. For those interested in my findings about supposed “deity
of Christ” and Trinitarian proof texts, I invite you to browse the titles and
texts on my podcast, the One God Report (any podcast platform or
on YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@billschlegel1), or the articles in my blog Land and
Bible https://landandbible.blogspot.com/.
When I came across John 17:1-3 where Jesus prays, “Father…this is eternal life,
to know you, the ONLY TRUE GOD, and Jesus the Messiah whom you have
sent”, and then 1 Corinthians 8:6, “as for us there is one God, the
FATHER…”, I wondered, “How come I had never seen this before?” The only
answer is that the presuppositions and traditions I had been taught had for
years been a veil over my eyes. But now it was clear as day: The only true God
is the Father; the one God is the Father.
I knew
my clearer understanding of who God and Jesus are conflicted with the doctrinal
statements of the Trinitarian university where I worked. As I thought about
these matters the months past, and I respected the doctrinal statement and
didn’t teach anything contrary to the doctrinal statement. Students knew
nothing about my developing beliefs. I also could avoid the topics since the
focus of my teaching was on biblical, history geography and Hebrew; and, after
all, Trinitarianism insists on belief in the humanity of Jesus.
In the
middle of March 2018, I informed the administration at the Trinitarian
university that I would not be able to continue teaching at the school beyond the
current semester, which was to finish in about six weeks. Many of the folks at
the university, some whom I had known for 20 or 30 years, were understandably shaken
at my new, clearer understanding of the Scriptures. I suppose I was a bit naïve
in expecting former friends to at least accept the fact that I believed in the
God of the Bible, and in Jesus of Nazareth the Christ, the Messiah, the Son of
God. The Scriptures, touted by Protestants as the only rule for faith and
practice had shown me who God and Christ are. Here I was confessing that Jesus
is the Christ, but all my former Trinitarian colleagues claimed I was denying
Christ!
Trinitarianism
is threatened by people who believe that the man, the human person, the human
being, Jesus of Nazareth is the Christ, and not one member of a co-equal,
co-eternal group of persons who supposedly together are one divine being. I’ve
found that many Christians seem to think “Christ” is a title for deity. It most
definitely is not. Protestant Christianity in particular, which insists that
the Bible is the sole authority for belief and practice, has a big problem
since nowhere in the Bible is God presented as a triune being. And, nowhere in
the Bible is belief in the Trinity or “deity of Christ” described as necessary
for salvation. On the contrary, Israelites and Gentiles who heard the gospel
proclaimed by the apostles in the Book of Acts never heard declarations about
the Trinity or the “deity of Christ” - but were being “saved” by the
thousands!
I felt
a bit like the blind man (John 9) who came to see and believe that Jesus is the
Messiah (“the Son of Man”) but the religious leaders told him to “get out of
here!” My experience is not unique. As
more and more people come to saving knowledge that the Father is the one true
God and Jesus is the Messiah who was killed but whom God raised from the dead
and exalted to God’s own right hand (John 17:3; Acts 2:22,33, 36; Rom. 10:9) –
the same scenario I experienced is played out over and over again. Believers in
the one God and his Christ are rejected by former “Christian” friends and
family.
By the
authority given to him by the Father, the man Jesus will judge those who have
mistreated God’s children (1 John 5:1, Acts 17:31). And, God’s children, that
is, those who believe that Jesus is the Christ (1 John 5:1) need to keep in
mind that social and economic pressures can be one way that God tests the
genuineness of our faith.
We left
Israel, among other reasons to help take care of my elderly parents, who are
now 92 and 93 years old. My wife is their principal care-taker. We have settled
near Nashville, TN to be part of a small congregation of one God believers.
We’ve made new friends at the church, at other churches of like-minded faith, and
through our two youngest children’s school and athletic activities, through
adult and youth conferences, and through various online channels. As more and
more people come to the saving knowledge that there is one God, and one
mediator between God and man, the man Christ Jesus (1 Tim. 2:4-5), more and
more resources are becoming available: books, articles, podcasts, videos,
websites, blogs, conferences, etc. It is exciting to be part of what some
people have called “the 21st Century Reformation.”
I keep
busy doing some Hebrew Bible translation consultation for Spirit and Truth’s
online Bible translation and commentary, the Revised English
Translation (REV), watching our
kids play soccer, selling the Satellite
Bible Atlas, writing
articles and producing the One God
Report podcast.
ישמעו ענוים
וישמחו – May the humble hear and rejoice! (Psalm 34:2)
#walkaway,
#trinity, #billschlegel, #sonofgod, #godtheson, #biblicalunitarian
Comments
I have just discovered this blog, enjoyed this post, and getting to know you a bit better! I'm currently also very much enjoying using your Satellite Bible Atlas as an aid to my biblical studies. It is really an excellent atlas, but may I ask you a question? (I've done my best, but haven't been able to find out the answer myself!). On your Map 1-2, on p. 4, there is an acronym 'CBP' beside the village of Ramah in the hill country . . . what does CBP stand for??
with thanks,
Amelia
Thanks for the comment. Glad you are finding the Atlas helpful and discovered the blog.
CBP stands for Central Benjamin Plateau - a bit difficult to get that all printed on Map 1-2 :)
You can see a description of the Central Benjamin Plateau starting at around 1:10 minute in this video (also on Map 1-9).
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sa8JfTMxQKo&list=PLjd_NbC7PRP4HQs9pCST_PSe7_IV52OL_&index=4
Blessings in Messiah Jesus.
thank you so much - and of course it stands for the Central Benjamin Plateau! I knew it was going to be something so obvious that I was blind to it!
It has been a gift and a joy to have been able to contact the author of a text for a clarification and guidance- thank you for the opportunity.
Have a blessed day,
Amelia
And experiencing the distance it creates when you try to share the findings with fellow Christians.
I’m still,working through the humanness of Christ. What does it mean that He was begotten of the father? Was Jesus created? Has He always existed?
Do you have any findings around this topic you could share?
There are more and more people like us coming to this understanding and faith, and more and more resources becoming available. As for/from me personally, if you browse the podcasts on the One God Report podcast, you'll see that I've covered a lot of the main questions.
One God Report (any podcast platform or on YouTube https://www.youtube.com/@billschlegel1).
Many of my podcasts have corresponding written text articles in this blog, Land and Bible https://landandbible.blogspot.com/.
Short answers to your questions:
What does it mean that He was begotten of the father?
"begotten" is simply an archaic word for "born". The parallel is Israel, who is God's firstborn son (Exo. 4:22) and as Israel's representative, Israel's king descended from David (Psalm 2 and 2 Sam. 7:12).
Was Jesus created? Created. If he was not, he was not a human being.
Has He always existed? No. He was born about 2000 years ago. Of course Jesus was fore-known in the plans and purposes of God (1 Pet. 1:20).
If you have facebook, please find me there and send me a friend request.
Blessings in Messiah,
Bill
I will look into this pod casts.
I’m not on Facebook (or any social media for that matter), or I would.
So Jesus Christ does not make any appearances in the OT - that’s the Father?
Which Bible is most accurate to read nowadays then?
It’s like everything I held my understanding of God on is being stripped away at the moment. Not the first time God has rid me of false teachings I’ve picked up along the way, but it’s never been of this magnitude. Some family members thinking I’m off on a heresy trail. No friends near by who agree either. But the Scripture can’t be denied - there’s no mention of the trinity I have become convinced. God now has me looking at the deity (0r not!), of Christ.
I can see the evidence that Christ was a man and not fully God whilst on earth - it’s the whole who and where was He in the OT and before Gen 1/ when time began.
Thanks for your help,
Alex
The Book of Hebrews says that only in these latter days God has spoken through a son (Heb. 1:1-2) and that the next time Jesus comes, it will be his "second time" (Heb. 9:28).
Those speaking for and "as if" Yahweh in the OT are His messengers, his power-of-attorney (so to speak) agents.
I've found there is probably as much that I am "unlearning" as "learning" in coming to understand that Jesus is a real human person, a real human being, appointed, anointed, empowered by God.
It takes time. When you have some, check out this series of podcasts I did with my friend Troy Salinger called "Pre-Incarnate Appearances of the Son of God in the OT: Truth or Myth"
https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLUqWXumvcp5p1klRmE6uAaU7uGSOMDuCX
Also, send me an email telling me a bit more about yourself. schegel4@gmail.com
Blessings.
Tried sending you an email. First one was sent back. Is it L4 or 14.
Will resend using 14.
Ive been following Sean Finnagan and co for a while now. There views have changed my life. Your exposition of the prologue of John has been nothing short of incredible. I love your story and journey. I would love to speak to you. Is this possible .
For sure. Please send me an email and we can exchange telephone #s.
schlegel4@gmail.com